I will update more tomorrow because I'm awfully tired right now......
However, I will say that today has by far been my best day at work... and it was a double...but it was enjoyable.
More tomorrow, like I said...
Thursday, May 20, 2010
Wednesday, May 19, 2010
Down Time
I've really enjoyed being out of school and having quite a bit of my daytime open. It's nice to be able to have time to actually be productive doing things I want to.
I also (unfortunately or fortunately) have had quite a bit of down time at work. It has kind of been driving me crazy... like LITERALLY nothing to do--everything is clean and ready for people, bluh-- soooo, as I was standing lonesome in the workstation pondering my wish of somebody walking through that door and sitting in my crummy section last night, I realized that so much of my time was going to waste....... I reached into my pocket and pulled out my "Guest Check" book and started writing... you know, a stream of consciousness kind of thing. After i rapidly wrote for about five minutes (as people were walking past me staring with concern), I woke up. It was like everything around me had stopped for a moment. Time stood still. And it felt so nice. Writing down all of the random thoughts in my head was such a release. I knew then why it's important to write more often (hence my two blogs)--Even if no one reads a word, it is out of my head and makes sense to me. As I reread over what I had written in the workstation, I felt so calm and at ease....
I also (unfortunately or fortunately) have had quite a bit of down time at work. It has kind of been driving me crazy... like LITERALLY nothing to do--everything is clean and ready for people, bluh-- soooo, as I was standing lonesome in the workstation pondering my wish of somebody walking through that door and sitting in my crummy section last night, I realized that so much of my time was going to waste....... I reached into my pocket and pulled out my "Guest Check" book and started writing... you know, a stream of consciousness kind of thing. After i rapidly wrote for about five minutes (as people were walking past me staring with concern), I woke up. It was like everything around me had stopped for a moment. Time stood still. And it felt so nice. Writing down all of the random thoughts in my head was such a release. I knew then why it's important to write more often (hence my two blogs)--Even if no one reads a word, it is out of my head and makes sense to me. As I reread over what I had written in the workstation, I felt so calm and at ease....
Tuesday, May 18, 2010
Unoriginal Thoughts to Share
These are from the book Traveling Light by Brian Andreas. Just wanted to share...
How many people
can you love before
it's too much? she said
& I said I didn't think
there was any
real limit as long
as you didn't care if
they loved you back
-Real Limit
____________________
I don't think of it
as working for
world peace, he said.
I think of it as
just trying to
get along in a
really big strange
family.
-Big Strange Family
____________________
I'm not sure
how it's going
to turn out,
except I'll die
in the end,
she said.
So, really, what
could go wrong?
-Perfect Ending
_____________________
How many people
can you love before
it's too much? she said
& I said I didn't think
there was any
real limit as long
as you didn't care if
they loved you back
-Real Limit
____________________
I don't think of it
as working for
world peace, he said.
I think of it as
just trying to
get along in a
really big strange
family.
-Big Strange Family
____________________
I'm not sure
how it's going
to turn out,
except I'll die
in the end,
she said.
So, really, what
could go wrong?
-Perfect Ending
_____________________
Since I'm trying to write everyday....
Having the other blog to keep myself on track with my goals is going to be very effective. I can feel it.
Not to complain or anything---because my life is amazing and anything that could be an inconvenience to that fact at the moment is more than likely trivial....which it is--- but I need to get this off my chest... I started a new job a couple of weeks and, overall, I like the job. I enjoy serving more to "guests" than double steakburgers and fattening milkshakes loaded with sugar goodness... Like serving wine and dishes that the chef takes a LOT of pride in (trust me, this guy gets pissed if a dish comes up looking the slightest bit off)... Anyways, I have had a bit of difficulty dealing with the people that I work with. Not ALL of them. Some of them are really fantastic and genuine people. But there a few. Mostly a "clique" of girls. It sucks that it has to be girls, because I really hate when girls are catty to other girls... but I feel like that is most definitely what's going on here. I mean, really it's a lot of insecurities flying around that restaurant... and I know that. And I've been trying to not let that bring me down or get to me in any way... But sometimes it just bothers me. I'm the kind of person that would prefer to just be friends with everyone...and, if not friends, at least be cool around each other and be able to work within a friendly atmosphere. I feel like I've done everything I can to make this happen. But it hasn't. This one girl in particular even had the nerve to tell me that she didn't think I should joke around with her yet because I "don't know her well enough"... If that isn't an insecurity, I don't know what is. Then she gave me a spiel about her being older than I am and more "cultured"...because she's lived in other countries or some crap like that... Okay, Ms. 28-year-old-still-stuck-serving-in-a-restaurant-girl. Stop being so full of yourself. Please. It's ruining my time at work. I'm not saying that work should necessarily just be about having a good time or anything, but if you're stuck in a restaurant for six hours (or more) running around busting your butt for people, can't you at least try to make it a little more enjoyable???
I really am trying to give it a shot... I am. I pray it gets better, because I do not want to dread going into work everyday this summer. : ( That would be sad.
On another note, I had a conversation with Kelly Clarkson last night at work. She was eating at another server's table and she stopped me as I was walking by and asked me if I liked the movie "Sister Act"... This chick OBVIOUSLY did not know how much I freaking LOVE that movie... : ) "Especially the second one, "Back in the Habit"', I told her. "See, this girl knows what's up!" Our conversation went on to discuss whether "The Goonies" was more popular than "Sister Act"...and ended with whether Lauryn Hill was more popular than Wyclef Jean. The latter we never came to a conclusion on. Or, rather, it was more of a "Wyclef is popular among people who pay attention to producers" and "Lauryn is generally more well known among pop radio fans" kinda thing.
Well, off to accomplish some more goals... or something... then work. : ) Befriend my new blog, too! I would love feedback and motivation. : ) www.thesenext5years.blogspot.com
Not to complain or anything---because my life is amazing and anything that could be an inconvenience to that fact at the moment is more than likely trivial....which it is--- but I need to get this off my chest... I started a new job a couple of weeks and, overall, I like the job. I enjoy serving more to "guests" than double steakburgers and fattening milkshakes loaded with sugar goodness... Like serving wine and dishes that the chef takes a LOT of pride in (trust me, this guy gets pissed if a dish comes up looking the slightest bit off)... Anyways, I have had a bit of difficulty dealing with the people that I work with. Not ALL of them. Some of them are really fantastic and genuine people. But there a few. Mostly a "clique" of girls. It sucks that it has to be girls, because I really hate when girls are catty to other girls... but I feel like that is most definitely what's going on here. I mean, really it's a lot of insecurities flying around that restaurant... and I know that. And I've been trying to not let that bring me down or get to me in any way... But sometimes it just bothers me. I'm the kind of person that would prefer to just be friends with everyone...and, if not friends, at least be cool around each other and be able to work within a friendly atmosphere. I feel like I've done everything I can to make this happen. But it hasn't. This one girl in particular even had the nerve to tell me that she didn't think I should joke around with her yet because I "don't know her well enough"... If that isn't an insecurity, I don't know what is. Then she gave me a spiel about her being older than I am and more "cultured"...because she's lived in other countries or some crap like that... Okay, Ms. 28-year-old-still-stuck-serving-in-a-restaurant-girl. Stop being so full of yourself. Please. It's ruining my time at work. I'm not saying that work should necessarily just be about having a good time or anything, but if you're stuck in a restaurant for six hours (or more) running around busting your butt for people, can't you at least try to make it a little more enjoyable???
I really am trying to give it a shot... I am. I pray it gets better, because I do not want to dread going into work everyday this summer. : ( That would be sad.
On another note, I had a conversation with Kelly Clarkson last night at work. She was eating at another server's table and she stopped me as I was walking by and asked me if I liked the movie "Sister Act"... This chick OBVIOUSLY did not know how much I freaking LOVE that movie... : ) "Especially the second one, "Back in the Habit"', I told her. "See, this girl knows what's up!" Our conversation went on to discuss whether "The Goonies" was more popular than "Sister Act"...and ended with whether Lauryn Hill was more popular than Wyclef Jean. The latter we never came to a conclusion on. Or, rather, it was more of a "Wyclef is popular among people who pay attention to producers" and "Lauryn is generally more well known among pop radio fans" kinda thing.
Well, off to accomplish some more goals... or something... then work. : ) Befriend my new blog, too! I would love feedback and motivation. : ) www.thesenext5years.blogspot.com
Monday, May 17, 2010
A New Chapter
So much has happened since I last updated...
I lost someone very close to me recently. Mary Kae was one of the strongest and funniest people I've ever met... She really became like a second mom to me and her passing broke my heart. I rest easier knowing that I will see her again one day. It's amazing how something can happen and put everything into perspective...Suddenly everything else seems so trivial....Mary Kae Frazier-Smith, you are so missed.
On a lighter note, I graduated two weeks ago. It's craaaaazy to think that I never have to go back! Two degrees down.... one Master's left to go.... London, here I come!
I also started another blog to keep track of random goals that I have. Check it out: www.thesenext5years.blogspot.com
I'm working at a swanky restuarant in Nashville and planning to get a second job soon as well. Just work work working till London! If that ain't motivation, I don't know what is!
I lost someone very close to me recently. Mary Kae was one of the strongest and funniest people I've ever met... She really became like a second mom to me and her passing broke my heart. I rest easier knowing that I will see her again one day. It's amazing how something can happen and put everything into perspective...Suddenly everything else seems so trivial....Mary Kae Frazier-Smith, you are so missed.
On a lighter note, I graduated two weeks ago. It's craaaaazy to think that I never have to go back! Two degrees down.... one Master's left to go.... London, here I come!
I also started another blog to keep track of random goals that I have. Check it out: www.thesenext5years.blogspot.com
I'm working at a swanky restuarant in Nashville and planning to get a second job soon as well. Just work work working till London! If that ain't motivation, I don't know what is!
Friday, April 9, 2010
Where the cold don't come and the wind don't blow
Well... I was just reading my previous post, which was almost a month ago. So much has changed! I've decided to accept my offer at Central and I have worked out my student loan situation, so I'll be moving to London in September! I am so excited for a change of pace, ya know? I'm definitely ready to graduate in May and get started with my life. So exciting...
It was very tough deciding whether or not to take out a student loan for grad school. I luckily haven't taken out any loans for undergrad, so I guess that makes it not so bad. I had to reason in the fact that I know if I decided against going to Central for a trivial reason such as money, that I would regret it for the rest of my life... Not saying that I won't be annoyed/slightly regretful when I have to pay back my loans, but weighing the two, I know this is the best decision.
It was very tough deciding whether or not to take out a student loan for grad school. I luckily haven't taken out any loans for undergrad, so I guess that makes it not so bad. I had to reason in the fact that I know if I decided against going to Central for a trivial reason such as money, that I would regret it for the rest of my life... Not saying that I won't be annoyed/slightly regretful when I have to pay back my loans, but weighing the two, I know this is the best decision.
Sunday, March 14, 2010
WHOA. a rollercoaster.
This has been one craaaaazy week.
I just talked to my dad on the phone and he told me I got accepted into the Central School in London... Yes, THE school... the only one that I have actually wanted to go to. This is ridiculous. Now I just need to see if I can afford it. Which, unfortuntately, there is a HUGE possiblity that I may not be able to. : ( But at least I got in? We will see...
This past week I've been in New York. I'm actually at the airport right now about to fly to Boston. I'm supposed to be auditioning at NETC this afternoon, but my flight was cancelled, so I had to reschedule for a later flight. I'm not sure if I will be able to make it to my audition now, but I sure am gonna bust my butt trying!
I have had such a fantastic trip thus far. I really don't want to leave the city... and get back to taking 28 very not fun hours of classes when I get home. : ( Ugh, stress.
This past weekend I attended the Intercollegiate Broadcasting Systems Conference in NYC. WMTS sent me. It was a really wonderful conference and I feel like I definitely left it feeling more knowledgeable on certain things. Not to mention the fact that it was incredibly motivating.
Then I stayed with Ryan Chitt, Brian, Austin, and Chris in Harlem. They have a really lovely flat there. Very nice. I had a blast hanging with the boys. Sad to leave.
On Wednesday I had v.i.p. tickets to see Jimmy Fallon. When I interviewed him on WMTS a week and a half ago, he hooked me up and I was able to take Ryan, Alex, and Austin as well. This past week (before I knew anything of Central..) I had pretty much set my heart on moving to the city when I graduate in May, so I've been looking at potential jobs. I contacted Jimmy Fallon's assistant through email a few days before the show to see if she knew anyone I could contact about possible getting a job doing assistant work at NBC. Sure enough, on Wednesday I got a phone call from her saying that she had contact info for me and that she spoke with Jimmy and he wanted to meet up with me after the show... WHA?! So... After the show I got the opportunity to meet up with Jimmy in the greenroom and talk for a while. He showed me around the set and then introduced me to Racheal Harris... who is HILARIOUS... lol. She was like "Hey, call me if you're ever in LA and I'll take ya to the Groundlings".... Yeah, like that would happen. ha! Either way, I had a freaking blast. Jimmy was such a sweetheart...really good guy. Kelly, his assistant, said she would be my referral for a job at NBC, so I'm working on that... We will see.
I also saw some theatre while I was here. Yesterday I went with Austin and Ryan to see "A Life in Three Acts". It had its ups and downs, but was definitely interesting. And last night, we went to see Austin's improv group, Garamond, perform. Very fun! I also got to see "Lenin's Embalmers", a new show Chris was working crew on. It was absolutely fantastic! I love seeing GOOD theatre...especially good new works... which are usually few and far between.
Well, I definitely have a lot of decisions to make within the next month.... Hopefully I can figure it out and make the right decision....What a great spring break this was! Hope I make it to Boston!!!
I just talked to my dad on the phone and he told me I got accepted into the Central School in London... Yes, THE school... the only one that I have actually wanted to go to. This is ridiculous. Now I just need to see if I can afford it. Which, unfortuntately, there is a HUGE possiblity that I may not be able to. : ( But at least I got in? We will see...
This past week I've been in New York. I'm actually at the airport right now about to fly to Boston. I'm supposed to be auditioning at NETC this afternoon, but my flight was cancelled, so I had to reschedule for a later flight. I'm not sure if I will be able to make it to my audition now, but I sure am gonna bust my butt trying!
I have had such a fantastic trip thus far. I really don't want to leave the city... and get back to taking 28 very not fun hours of classes when I get home. : ( Ugh, stress.
This past weekend I attended the Intercollegiate Broadcasting Systems Conference in NYC. WMTS sent me. It was a really wonderful conference and I feel like I definitely left it feeling more knowledgeable on certain things. Not to mention the fact that it was incredibly motivating.
Then I stayed with Ryan Chitt, Brian, Austin, and Chris in Harlem. They have a really lovely flat there. Very nice. I had a blast hanging with the boys. Sad to leave.
On Wednesday I had v.i.p. tickets to see Jimmy Fallon. When I interviewed him on WMTS a week and a half ago, he hooked me up and I was able to take Ryan, Alex, and Austin as well. This past week (before I knew anything of Central..) I had pretty much set my heart on moving to the city when I graduate in May, so I've been looking at potential jobs. I contacted Jimmy Fallon's assistant through email a few days before the show to see if she knew anyone I could contact about possible getting a job doing assistant work at NBC. Sure enough, on Wednesday I got a phone call from her saying that she had contact info for me and that she spoke with Jimmy and he wanted to meet up with me after the show... WHA?! So... After the show I got the opportunity to meet up with Jimmy in the greenroom and talk for a while. He showed me around the set and then introduced me to Racheal Harris... who is HILARIOUS... lol. She was like "Hey, call me if you're ever in LA and I'll take ya to the Groundlings".... Yeah, like that would happen. ha! Either way, I had a freaking blast. Jimmy was such a sweetheart...really good guy. Kelly, his assistant, said she would be my referral for a job at NBC, so I'm working on that... We will see.
I also saw some theatre while I was here. Yesterday I went with Austin and Ryan to see "A Life in Three Acts". It had its ups and downs, but was definitely interesting. And last night, we went to see Austin's improv group, Garamond, perform. Very fun! I also got to see "Lenin's Embalmers", a new show Chris was working crew on. It was absolutely fantastic! I love seeing GOOD theatre...especially good new works... which are usually few and far between.
Well, I definitely have a lot of decisions to make within the next month.... Hopefully I can figure it out and make the right decision....What a great spring break this was! Hope I make it to Boston!!!
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